Her Last sleep

It came to me like a black dreadful night
and took you away from me into  some unknown wilderness.
Just then the dance of the dawn was about to begin
Now I am alone, wandering in desolate wilderness.

 How frail were our vows, taken by us together
holding hands in our adolescent faith
and promising ourself eternal togetherness
 In life
In death!!!

That moment the way you looked at me
I somehow knew there was 'farewell in you'r eyes'

I had silently touched your forehead
 removed softly,the wayward, obstinate strands of hair falling on you'r face as usual
and had pulled myself aside
 with a silent cry inside.

 I knew those were the last moments
 of you'r valiant struggle.
I also knew having fought to the last
wounded ,your weapons had parted company.

I was helpless on all account
 I could'nt sahrpen your weapons
or give you new ones
For your fight is with death!!!
I watched silently your going away.
Frozen in my total helplessness

NO YOU ARE NOT AT FAULT
 IT IS I WHO BEAR THE SIN OF BETRAYAL
 FOR I AM STILL ALIVE
EVEN WHEN YOU ARE GONE.

This is it

This is it. Everytime I exclaimed.
My heart is lost at the wild goose chase.

To search the image in reflection is like
To chase the reflection in the object.

Pointless.

Tossed and turned 
Mauled and hauled
Mocked and shocked

Oh!  This wicked hope of mine.
This is it.....
My core echoes....

Is it so? 

( echoes of fading laughter in the background)

Two worlds

I live in two worlds at once
Two distinct spheres, aligned forever
Like the heart and the mind.
Just a feet or universe apart

In one, life is everything 
And death,  nothing.

In the other,

Life is nothing 
In death, emerges everything. 

Oscillating between activity and stillness
How to I transcend this illness.

Into active stillness.